Essence:
I been waiting on sucess, there nothing that feels stranger-
Then to see it all reflect and feelin like your a stranger-
The person in the mirror, I fear her, I feel her anger-
That person coming nearer, wave clearer I need ya anchor-
(Its like Im) lookin for a reason to swim or even drown slow-
Dont push someone whos eager to win right in there downslope-
Cause I will go Ether and go in on all these clown folk-
Then make you repeat it again on every download-
But listen, I am diciplined- only will start a fire if-
you missin where my missle is, look for somethin to fire with-
That means you steady missing the point of where my fire went-
you pourin water over my joint right when its firing-
So how could you get higher when you dont hear the enviroment-
You never hear the voices of reason sayin you fire yet-
that 9-5 talkin, its talkin and gettin louder-
Clock keeps watchin, watchinlike every hour-
Every coward, got a reason- retreating thinking a leaving-
leadin these people Im eager but feelin I need my freedom-
The picture- is much bigger than competition could ever be-
Alyssa- pull the trigger, they rather you be my enemy
see I dont understand if I failed- or if I struck fate-
If money give us time to prevail- then Im a buck late-
How we sposed to follow the trail, where there is such hate-
The box being hammered with nails and I cant escape-
ha, and im bettin you could re-late
Alyssa Marie:
Still tryna figure out the signs, picture getting bigger in my mind
Finger twitching on the trigger, tried sitting to the side
but it's times like this minute, fine lines in the sky's limit
That remind it's the prime time for reviving it
Thrive in the middle of when and just surviving
and it's time to pick a side cause the river it's getting wider
and the shore is getting further to either, I read the finer print
While looking at the size of picture inside a wider lens
it's the struggle of wondering what'll come of the trouble
of putting double the effort with every muscle
Connecting the puzzle, ruffling feathers to get a couple of
Subtle if any steps I could stumble or misdirect
and I can feel the people waiting to take it as opportunity
Truthfully,though it's sad it don't seem as bad as used to be
ain't stressin like I usually do, I'm used to scrutiny
Tell me they're down for life, and they're ready writing my eulogy
Proof reading it scheming a way they can take the lead
When the only way to escape a defeat is to not compete
and instead begin to assemble together, but I can see
I'll either eat at the bottom or starve for what's out of reach
Try to leap, when the place that I'm aiming ain't in my vision yet
Or stay where I know I'mma be safe and accept the limits set
I guess, I can settle for less or risk the whole pot
and either leave with all or nothing when this show stops
credits
from HeartBeat,
released May 31, 2012
Produced by Teddy Roxpin, engineered by BeatBlocked Productions
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023
